"point in time” is my debut album under the moniker weird inside. i intended for it to be a series of memoirs relating to the listener’s life, no matter how young or old. i tried to sing more on this project (my voice is present on three songs) and it was a learning experience making a long, cohesive project like this. most of the music was made over the course of the last three years, but remained as demos until the beginning of this year (2020).

grow up

mostly about the fear of responsibility and not wanting to get older. this is one of the oldest songs on the album, the first iteration of it was created in early 2018. it stayed as an instrumental for most of that time, and i ended up adding the vocals in april 2020.

crush

contrary to what the title may say, this isn’t about the feeling of infatuation - it actually has more to do with the ‘crush’-ing feeling of overthinking and being overwhelmed by having the desire to do many things. this song resamples “grow up” in the intro and twists it until it becomes a small, unrecognizable chop (where “grow up” symbolizes a fond memory or nostalgia, “crush” fast forwards that into the future and shows hopeful chaos). i also intended to have a vocalist on this song, but never heard back from any of the ones that i reached out to.

memories of martina

this is my favorite song on the album! i’ve known greyhat for about seven years now, and he’s one of the reasons my music sounds the way it does and i listen to the artists that i do. i made this song in november 2017, and it started off as just drums and a resampled chop of the ending of “grow up.” i ended up remaking the beat in february 2020 and adding guitar, more synths and shared it with a small group of my friends. mike (greyhat) was part of this group, and ended up really liking it and wanting to add to it - the vocals on the song are the first take he sent me. we did end up attempting to re-record and do other vocals on the song, but we both liked how much the first take fit that we chose to stick with them in the end.

maps

finding my own path in life is something that i’ve never found easy. nobody in my family is a freelancer, let alone a producer or musician, so early on i felt a lot of difficulty trying to make something out of it and believe in myself to keep going. the looping nature of ‘maps’ signifies whittling down your aspirations and figuring out what you need to do to get what you want. as the song progresses, it develops and gets more and more detailed, just as one’s life becomes more and more clear with examination over time.

passenger

the antithesis to ‘maps’! where ‘maps’ signifies taking active control of your life and being determined, ‘passenger’ reveals that you aren’t the main character and sometimes unexpected things will come your way. while you can attempt to take control and succeed in most elements of your life, there will always be unknowns that you have to approach with grace, and ‘passengers’ is about that.

suddenly

a more present version of ‘memories of martina.’ this one is probably the most personal to me on this album, and it’s about caring about someone more than it seems like they care about themselves. the song is from the perspective of an individual who cares too much about their friend, who gets frustrated with them and gets swept away by not wanting to be irritated by the carer.

hourglass

this song is about diligence in education driving someone to the point of near insanity. i skipped most of college and never graduated, so this isn’t about a personal experience i had, but instead observing my friends through their college years. it starts off calm, methodical and organized and ends up devolving into chaos and stress.

out of nothing

‘hourglass’ and this song are two parts of the same song, but ‘out of nothing’ is about a completely different time in someone’s life. where ‘hourglass’ culminates in a stress-fest, this song carries the same life through post-college. it’s more relaxed, more hopeful, and elegant. in a way, it shows triumph over the completion of higher education and makes you feel gratified. but was it all worth it? did you make the right decisions?

reset

regret is an emotion i still feel a lot in regards with what i chose to do in life up until this point. sometimes i wish i could’ve done other things or done things differently from the get go. this song is about feeling that regret towards all of the events that have happened in this story, and thinking that maybe things could’ve gone differently. but in the end, there is no use in trying to turn time back, and you’re stuck with the consequences of your actions.

every day the world turns quicker

the future is always approaching, and the past is always on its way out - everything that we do is just another typewriter stroke that cannot be overwritten, and new steps must be made. this song is about that, and finishes off the album as the antithesis to ‘reset.’ i didn’t want to end the album on the sad, pitying note that ‘reset’ instills, and this song flips the feeling of regret around into moving on and focusing on the present instead of the past. after all, the world will turn time whether we like it or not.